moving along

i scheduled my first appointment for dress shopping this weekend. yay! or, more appropriately for me, ugh... i'm kind of dreading dress shopping. and there's a couple reasons for this. first, i remember how long it too me to find the perfect dress for school dances. i would pass dress after dress at a store then end up trying a few on and never find "the one." so it was off to the next store and the next series of dresses. i remember my mom and i agonizing about going dress shopping because there never seemed to be any dresses that were nice. everything was so tacky and showy or just plain old ugly. i like simple, elegant dresses. the kind of dress that will make the man you're with catch hi breath when he first sees you. this is what i'm looking for in my wedding dress. not too much to ask for, right?

the second reason... i don't especially like being the center of attention. i'll admit it, i'm kind of a shy person. i get very nervous when all the attention is on me. it makes me feel like i have to constantly be on guard that i'm not making myself look like an idiot or doing anything dumb. with that said, however, i shouldn't really be concerned about this at all. i'll be shopping with my mom, sister-in-law who is going to be one of my bridesmaids and another bridesmaid who is a close friend of mine. and i have to say, all three of these people have all seen me at my worst. so maybe i should move onto the last reason why i'm dreading this process.

two words. wedding consultant. i know that by going on a weekend i will have to share my wedding consultant with another bride. this won't be a problem as long as they work equally with both of us. i'm assuming the worst in this situation. i can picture it turning into a battle to cater to the bride who's going to spend the most money. this is definitely not me. i'm not one of these brides that goes out and gets any dress she wants and simply hands mommy and daddy's money over. i have set a budget for my dress and there's not much wiggle room. i want something beautiful and elegant and amazing, but that means i might just have to shop around some more to find something like that in my price range. i'm worried the other bride will end up getting all of the attention because all the consultant is going to see is dollar signs. i'm also worried that the consultant won't listen to me or be on the same page as me when it comes to the style and design of the dress i'm looking for. i have some sample images to show that hopefully will help eliminate this issue, but it's still something that could happen.

maybe it's just an issue of me being eager to finally go out and dress shop. i'm probably thinking way too much into this and making myself anxious over the whole process. i'm nervous, but very excited at the same time. all i want is for the appointment to go smoothly without any problems and be successful. come this weekend i'll have all of these thoughts behind me and be ready to shop with an open mind!